I have no clue on where my life is heading right now. I dropped off from my bachelor program due to "uncertainties" event happened in my family or am I using this as an excuse not to blame myself from falling off in my studies? I'm not sure which part of me being truthful and honest anymore. Many things are just being said and done to comply with another action and consequences.
One thing for sure, I'm procrastinating in everything. I am the reason why I am what I am at the moment. I can't find the reason for me to do anything without a stronger reason. I'm in constant search of reasons and factors to drive me ahead. Maybe I shouldn't. Maybe I should just let it be as how it is and do what I want to do! Maybe I shouldn't think too long before doing anything. But it may be a rash decision, I cant afford to lose anything at anytime. This is not who I am, what I was build for.
My old projects are still in hold. I have gave my words but have not done it...what am I doing? Why am I letting myself down by allowing others to have the misconception about myself? Why?
Anyone reading this post? Am I having some sort of disorder??
Help...~
