A birthday celebration dinner out at a Chinese restaurant at SS3, thought it would be mellow and usual makan (eat) and with some topics to talk; turns out to be an emotional advising and confronting one's own mistakes he has done in the past. Fuhhh...emotional giler!!
During a tensed situation, we all would always hope for a solution or someone to intervene in between to get us out from there...but based on my experiences, I completely feel its unnecessary. Why would I need someone else when I can solve something and face it on my own? Isn't that how I was "custom-ed" for all these years???
Whats gone is always gone tho...Once you have missed all the moments you could had when we were kids has already gone forever. Maybe its not your own entire mistake. You have been busy earning and saving for our future and to ensure there's food to eat. But...a mistake is still a mistake in my eyes. That doesn't require any certification nor qualification to grant you the permission to commit a mistake.
I was filled with so many thoughts and comments during and after we all left the restaurant...but now...haiz...
I just feel like forgetting everything because what I know is that, today's topic was entirely meant for someone else, not to me. As a parent, you may have certain expectations but never to think you know us deeply enough to understand what we're thinking. Im not sure about my sisters...but certainly not me!
I love you all so much as I decided to bring my secret down with me to my grave if that's gonna give you happiness till your last breath guys~
Hope everything ends well in the end... <3 p="">
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