Its Sunday, my eldest sister's birthday. She turned 25 years old. Next in line will be me. Somehow I dont feel any excitement to celebrate nor to plan anything special on such dates. Funny when I remember back those friends who I thought miserable enough not to celebrate their own birthdays which only falls on that one special, fixed date every year. According to them, its a total waste of time and asks me in return whats so special to celebrate it?? Perhaps they went through some rough moments in their life back then. I always stayed positive no matter what happens but life kept teaching me one after another miserable, rough, bumpy journey throughout the years, the spirit seems to just fade off with no excitement nor optimism is it; not anymore. I got to honest, shouldn't I? I cannot afford going on with my life, pretending to be something which I'm not at all from the inside. But that one ultimate cost which makes me loss nothing much besides my own selfishness thoughts and stands...for the sake of my beloved ones; my family. I love them so much that I dont want them to be sad... pretending to be happy aint gonna make my day bad...hahahaha...
Anyways, happy birthday big sis. Hope things works on well in your life... prayers for you^^
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